First Post

Unfortunately, my first time will be a mad first time.

What is it about this life that makes you upset, or makes you feel inadequate? Could it be your shortfalls? Do you know your shortfalls, or are they things that people have to point out for you? I'm not sure either way. I think most people know where they lack in life, and some people have to be shown their ill ways. I'm a person that, on the inside, sort of realizes what needs improvement, but on the outside portrays an image of non-concern.

I think most people are satisfied with their life, but, to me, that should not be the case. Most people let things go by the wayside, for example, they ignore their responsibilities, or they just don't care about things, like their job, or people around them. I think I hold onto things too much, or too long, or too tight. Perhaps I'm the one who needs to change, I used to think that the way I operated was the standard or the norm. The more time I spend on this God forsaken planet, the more I feel like other people are the standard, and that I need to change. The problem is, I don't know how to change, or how to care less about my job, my life, the people in it, and everything else such as making sure everyone is happy around me, and always trying to satisfy all parties around me. Perhaps its something to do with the way I was raised? Should I seek professional help here? Not sure, not sure anyone has the answer here. I'm too cheap to pay someone to figure it out anyway. I think I can analyze myself better than anyone else can. Some jackass with a degree on the wall can tell me better, and charge me $400 a session to boot. Suck ass shrink.

Good news is football is on this weekend. Something to look forward to. Beer, football, and friends. Good times. Monday, back to the coal mines. Good stuff.

How I Met You Mother is a good show on CBS. Not as good as Dexter, of course, but its up there.

sr